Grow up and blow away.

I’m about to turn eighteen, I’m going to start a new chapter in my life. Its basically the end of an era I spent eight years trying to destroy. I can’t help but live my life with regrets, I try to ignore everything and continue looking straight ahead but there are parts of me that can’t help bringing memories back, stopping me in my tracks.

re·gret

[ri-gret] Pronunciation Key – Show IPA Pronunciation verb, -gret·ted, -gret·ting, noun –verb (used with object)

1. to feel sorrow or remorse for (an act, fault, disappointment, etc.): He no sooner spoke than he regretted it.
2. to think of with a sense of loss: to regret one’s vanished youth.

–noun

3. a sense of loss, disappointment, dissatisfaction, etc.
4. a feeling of sorrow or remorse for a fault, act, loss, disappointment, etc.
5. regrets, a polite, usually formal refusal of an invitation: I sent her my regrets.
6. a note expressing regret at one’s inability to accept an invitation: I have had four acceptances and one regret.

I have spent the remainder of my time here in California enjoying it the best I could, in all honesty. I don’t know why I spent so much of my time pushing these people away. I’ve gone out, I’ve done what I’ve pleased and I actually finished high school before some of my peers. Independence is something no one should try taking away from you. I have spent all these years fighting for that and now that its handed to me, I feel accomplished and somewhat tired. Thank you Peter for starting a blog here. A new life calls for a new blog and this is perfect.

Daddy’s girl. I used to be one of those girls. Who looked up to their father, thinking they were the best guy in the world. Most dependable and most honorable. HA. is all I have to say to that.

  • let things go.
  • move on.
  • dream bigger.
  • move faster.
  • keep going.
  • never stop.

I tell myself those things every day. To keep myself from letting others bring me down.

Traditional
Gemini traits

Adaptable and versatile
Communicative and witty
Intellectual and eloquent
Youthful and lively

On the dark side….

Nervous and tense
Superficial and inconsistent
Cunning and inquisitive

I’ve always been attracted to astrology. I think it describes me the best. So much for a first blog. I’ll be sure to add more later one.

Plans for today:

  1. Shower, blow dry+straighten hair.
  2. Choose outfit for tonight.
  3. Go over to Amys to get ready.
  4. Meet up Megan at some Rave,
  5. Then mob it over to Amys friend.
  6. Sleep.

Good bye,

D.

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Published:
May 23, 2008 / 9:45 pm
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